I met Mr. Situation about a year ago. He was chocolate, tall, nice teeth, well dressed, in my opinion he was perfect.

From the beginning, his voice sent vibrations throughout my body. Just him saying my name that first night sent a shockwave through my spine.

Fast forward a little bit. I saw him often. We went out on a couple of dates and he also used to come to my job to make sure I was good. Mr. Situation had a way of making me feel like I was the most perfect person in the world, like I was the only girl in the world. Even in nightclubs and strip clubs he would always keep his eyes on me. He never paid attention to those other girls, just me. I think this is why I fell so hard.

I also loved the fact that he is a great father to his children. I’ve never been a person who dated men with children but I figured I’d take a chance. Because my father was never there for me, he became exactly the type of father I wished I had.

Then the worst thing happened. He told me he was moving away because he got a promotion at work. I was so happy for him. I felt like this was such an amazing opportunity for him to give his children more than what he was giving them before. I also thought about how amazing this opportunity would be for us to grow. But this wasn’t the same plan he had. I tried to do what I was supposed to do. Mr. Situation thought it would be best that we stop dealing with one another because of the distance. I didn’t really care about the distance, I was down for him. But after really thinking about it I decided it would be best for us to end whatever it was we were doing. I didn’t want to but I felt I couldn’t make him stay anywhere he didn’t want to be. I had to cut everything off. I downloaded an app that I could use to hide him from me forever. His pictures, text messages, everything was gone.

I have a habit of being so nice and I had to check on him every once in a while. We had a casual conversation — I even called and texted him for his birthday. One day a few weeks ago I sent him an email to check on him. He replied and I didn’t know what to do. Mr. Situation apparently moved back to town about two months ago. I felt elated, excited, so happy! Then I started thinking about it and I felt so hurt, angry, and confused. Why would he move back and not tell me? How do you do that to someone who you care about? At this very moment I still don’t know the answer to that. I knew there was a chance he would be back but to move back and not tell me is just wrong. Did Mr. Situation even care from the start? I remember thinking about how great it would be to have him back in my life. I just wanted a fresh start or a new beginning. I’m just sick of the excuses. Why can’t Mr. Situation just be honest?

Of course, I had to see him. I got really dressed up, went out and had a couple of drinks and he of course called. I didn’t invite him over surprisingly but my roommate did. She grilled him like he was a cheese sandwich on the stove. I appreciated it though. During this conversation I found out he had a girlfriend but she lived in the state he moved from. That hurt but the rum and coke covered my pain. We decided he could stay over but out of respect I wouldn’t sleep with him. Call me stupid, crazy and anything else but of course that promise was broken. It was like he had never left me. Waking up with him next to me was perfect. All the feelings I felt before he left came back. Then reality hit me. He wasn’t mine anymore and he wasn’t going to tell her about me. All the excuses, lies, and partial truths continued. I knew what I had to do. They say if you love something let it go, if it comes back it’s yours. He apparently was mine for one more night. I don’t regret Mr. Situation. Every situation I’ve been in I strive to learn something from, whether it’s love or life. The next situation I get in will be different but I’ll remember all the lessons I learned from this one.

Mahogani