It’s easy to sit and watch.
It’s easy to sit and watch the world pass. The sun glisten against an icy blue sky.
It’s easy to sit and watch the world pass. The sun glisten. The cars move. The people scurry.
To be stagnant. And not have any clue what direction you should go.
I thought I’d only experience a slump once in life. During those tough months in college when people are pressuring you to decide your whole future on the words that will be stamped across your college degree.
I’ve been that girl. The one that sits there, swaying in the safety net of mediocrity – constantly wondering how HE or SHE made it but not heeding advice, applying tips, taking direction. Not being disciplined. Giving up. Starting over.
Sitting.
Watching.
Lurking.
I’ve seen the shell of who I don’t want to be. She’s not cool. She doesn’t sit at the cool kids table.
Instead, she sits and watches. Sits and watches the world go by. Sits and watches everyone else chase their dreams…while she wonders….
How did I end up here? How did I get so freaking stuck.
And she turns to the sky, waiting for some miraculous answer or blessing to be poured down in her lap through some golden ray of light –
But instead sees nothing. Nothing but grey. Nothing but the middle, the in between, sandwiched layer that she chooses to make her bed in.
It’s easy to sit and watch.
But sitting and watching gets boring. It gets tiring. It gets exhausting. It gets – hell, consuming.
It’s not a way to live life. It’s not a way to live life.
I’ve been that girl. The one who wonders what her purpose is. The one who constantly is “planning” what she’s going to do next but never actually starts.
But I’ve also been that girl who didn’t give a damn. Who jumped in, feet first, and held onto a little prayer of hope that there was a light at the end of the tunnel. I’ve been that girl who was fearless and had tons of silly dreams that she began to make into a reality. I’ve been that girl who worked harder than the rest.
Where did she go? Where did she go?
Nobody is perfect. And everything worth wanting takes time. Takes courage. Takes freaking bravery.
Because it’s so easy to sit and watch.
But passivity doesn’t suit me anymore.
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Liane is an art-fanatic and tech-enthusiast living way too far above the Mason-Dixon line. Based in New York City, Liane loves creating impactful content — whether it’s a drop-to-your knees feature or a webpage with banging design. She is a freelance web developer, writer, and digital strategist who has written for Clutch, CNN.com, Ebony, and other publications. She also runs Bauce Mag a motivational life/style website, in hopes of helping other women build the strength to chase their dreams fearlessly. Boost your morning mojo with her uplfiting messages on Twitter: @limembo
