I wanna let my kinks down
Wear red lipstick and red bottoms to the grocery store if I please
Be a canvas painted with confidence
A work of art that shines
Like a bad a- tattoo
Bad in a good way
I wanna party on the weekends
Dance till I glisten
Even go out on a week night
Have drinks. No limit
I want deep conversations with you
Have you enter my soul with your words
To be romanticized by your attentiveness
No sex
Just make love to my mind
That’ll do just fine
I wanna get on stage and perform
Maybe spoken word to the beat of your drum
While my hips dance to the rhythm of your jazz
Oh yes
I wanna be seen
To leave my mark
I wanna be remembered
To evoke emotion and passion
Invoke positive change to the masses
I wanna release the need to be understood by you
Accepted by you
Validated by you
No longer enslaved by your views, opinions or common misconceptions
I wanna be confident in who I am
100 % authentically me
I wanna share my story and have the freedom to do it my own way
I wanna be challenged
Never a quitter
Always a winner
I confess.

As I peel back the layers of who I AM and the insecurities that have indulged and eaten away at my aspirations, I wonder how I could have lived 27 years without really living at all; only existing in my own little bubble. The atmospheric pressure of doubt clouding my judgment has restricted so many blessings from making its way into my world; quitting whenever my will was challenged.

But it’s not too late for me. I am beautifully unique, with my own story to share and the freedom to share it in my own extraordinary way.

As I grown and learn more about the woman I am becoming, its quite possible that I’ll outgrow some of my friends, or lose some that were only meant for a season, and that’s okay! The ones who are true will remain and that’s all that matters.

I confess – I want the courage and confidence to be 100% authentically me, and not feel the need to apologize for it. I want to be able to explore the different parts of me that make me who I AM, without concern of how I might make you feel being exposed to a different side of me.

It’s official. I am releasing your judgments. I am free.

I confess. Today is the day I start listening to me. 100% authentic! 100% free! 100% authentically me!

Sonia Starke
Pitched Entry